Sunday, March 23, 2014

Everything

This morning we went to church and though we got the start time wrong and were late I think we were right on time for the message. 
Within minutes of sitting down, the pastor said, “You may have money, you may have food to eat, you may have a house to live in, you may have a vehicle to drive but if you don’t have Jesus you have nothing.  In the same way, if you do not have money, if you do not have food to eat, if you do not have a house, if you do not have a vehicle but you do have Jesus, then you have everything.  You can have all the things of this world but if you don’t have Jesus, none of the things matter.”
Living in a country where the majority don’t have the things the pastor mentioned this morning made his message all the more powerful. 
I've prayed for weeks saying, “Jesus, I know you are enough…so please physically BE ENOUGH.  Over and over again I've thought of the words from a song that I sang/prayed during my first visit to Haiti, called "You're Everything".  I shared some of the lyrics and thoughts in a post during that trip here:  No Way, José. 
Praying for Jesus to be my everything takes on a new meaning when I am again finding myself without some trusty everyday things I've grown accustomed to.  
Today in Jesus Calling it said, “When you entrust the details of your life to Me, you are surprised by how thoroughly I answer your petitions.  ..your faith is strengthened as you see how precisely I respond to your specific prayers.  Because I am infinite in all my ways, you need not fear that I will run out of resources.  Abundance is at the very heart of who I am.  Come to me in joyful expectation of receiving all you need - and sometimes much more!  I delight in showering blessings on my beloved children.  Come to me with open hands and heart – ready to receive all I have for you.”
God, alone, is our Provider.  Oh, how we are seeing that…
He will continue to provide for us as we continue to press into Him.  When we are at the end of our resources, He has only begun to show us His.  As His children, He takes pleasure in providing for us.  But how can we accept such gifts and blessings when we fill our lives with all the ‘something elses’.  As we loosen our grip on what we perceive as security, we find that we are introduced and can embrace true security. 
Through tears this morning I praised God for His compassions…for His mercies…for His unending provisions and it occurred to me that for the first time I can relate to those we have grown to love over the last year in a whole new way.  While I learned to live in Haiti without some comforts from the States, I still had luxuries that so many others around me did not have.  I had the privilege of living in a house with a roof and I even had my own space…a room with my own comfortable bed.  I had enough clothes that would allow me to go a week without washing at times and a place to store those clothes, too.  I had food to eat each day and soap to clean the dishes we ate on. 
While I thanked God for His provisions for us in Camp Coq, I worked to encourage those who didn't have such luxuries to thank Him for the provisions in their lives, too.  And as we left the place we called home last week, I reminded those we love so much that the same God that had been providing would continue to provide for all of us even though I couldn't tell them where it was tangibly going to come from.  I pray that as I see my Savior through more similar circumstances as they do, that He will continue to remind me that no earthly circumstances can interfere with what He has in store for each of us. 

“How priceless is your unfailing love!  Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings.  They feast on the abundance of your house; you give them drink from your river of delights.  For with You is the fountain of life; in your light we see light.  Continue your love to those who know you, your righteousness to the upright in heart.” Psalm 36: 7-10

Friday, March 21, 2014

For such a time as this?

Our children ask questions almost daily that we don't have answers to.
Family and friends continue to ask questions that we don't have answers to.
Our own minds race with questions that we don't have answers to.

All are legitimate questions but none-the-less, questions that we just can't answer right now.


We went snorkeling earlier this week and though my unusually queasy stomach made me dread the boat ride that took us to the island I am so glad I went along.  There was such peace in the water.  I swam out by myself and tapped into a form of worship I rarely get to enjoy.

As I looked around, I saw fish and shells and coral and plants and I couldn't help but praise the God who made it all.  The water was so clear!  No matter where I swam I could see the floor.  I couldn't easily touch the floor in the deep but I could see it.  It was a floor that never ceased.  I was amazed at what I saw in the deep and I am amazed today at this current "floor" of peace that exists in my life during this uncertain time.

I can't tell you where we will be in a week much less a month.   I don't wake up each day automatically grateful for this phase of life.  I can't say that we are just one big happy family, greeting obvious change with smiles on our faces through it all.  And I realize that we may never get answers to some of our questions on this side of heaven but underneath all the questions I do feel a weird, yet, settling peace.

A peace that piggy-backs hope, I suppose...  
     "Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him."  Psalm 62:5

A peace that doesn't make a bit of sense...
     "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7

But a peace that reminds me that although I don't have answers to our questions, God has purposed me (and my family) "for such a time as this".  (Esther 4:14)

I can't imagine what thoughts and questions must have gone through Esther's mind as she heard the words, "who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"  I am in anything but a royal position in the world's eyes.  We are at the mercy of friends right now to even give us a place to sleep but I know this..."His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of a man; the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in His unfailing love." Psalm 147:10-11  The same God that made the waters that I reveled in earlier this week holds our every day and as I continue to let go of the things that I cannot control, I believe He is working in me.  I believe that when I cannot give my children an answer other than, "God knows and He is trustworthy", that not a single day will go by in vain.  

I was able to swim out into the deep this week because of the equipment I had.  And I am able to keep "swimming" now because my hope is in Him who promises me that He is my salvation.  "I will trust and not be afraid.  The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation." (Isaiah 12:2)  He was my salvation yesterday when we were stopped 4 times to show vehicle papers during our 7 hour car ride.  He is my salvation today as I wait on further direction.  And He will be my salvation tomorrow and every day that follows until I rest in His physical arms.

"And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.  Men swear by someone greater than themselves, and the oath confirms what is said and puts an end to all argument.  Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath.  God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged.  We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure."  ~Hebrews 6: 15-19

The anchor holds...
Even in such a time as this.....


Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Treasures from Daddy

The beautiful colors of meadows in Spring
Autumn woodlands glow with fiery reds and purples
And in Winter the snow covered branches of trees
Give forests a roof of silvery lace
There's beauty in a bright, Summer flower
Splashed with sparkling raindrops.


Psalm 104:24 - "O Lord, how manifold are thy works!  In wisdom hast thou made them all: the earth is full of thy riches."


On a bright sunny day when sunlight shines
Through the air light fills the sky
What a beautiful sight
A pretty blue sky,
God uses the sun to transcend some light

On a bright sunny day or a star laden night you can see God's beauty



I found this when I was packing books in the school room...  It was written by my Daddy and was tucked in a Childcraft book that was mine and my brother's when we were little.  Our kids have thoroughly enjoyed that set of books so it does pay to hang on to some things from generation to generation (smiles), but especially when there are priceless pieces of the past tucked inside.  I'm not sure my Daddy even meant to place this writing inside the book that was probably left open near the area where he was working many, many years ago but I know for certain that my Heavenly Father had a purpose in my finding it during our time of transition this year!

What an incredible reminder that yes, God is transcending light even in times of darkness.

I had the opportunity to go back to the top of the mountain with our boys before we left Camp Coq.  Though my Daddy couldn't be with me in person, I can't help but think about him every time I look at these images that portray a bit of the beauty that he described in his writing.










I am so grateful for parents that loved me enough to teach me about how much our very personal God loves us.  And the fact that they love God and radiate Him in their own lives is such an added bonus.

What an amazing God we serve.  Look for Him and you will find Him.....  (Deuteronomy 4:29)

Thank you, Daddy, for all the treasures you've given me!  I love you!!!