It's been 2 years and 4 months since we made the cold, wet drive from our friends' home in Atlanta, GA to our house in MS before packing the last of the things we'd need in Haiti.
Feelings I fought during the months leading up to our family's transition to Haiti were exactly the reason I tried to bargain with God (years prior) when I told Him I'd 'go' if He 'called' as long as I didn't have to give up my pets.
I surrendered.
Tracey knew that I was struggling. She knew there was no easy fix but she and Jim opened their home and their hearts and took our boys in, assuring me they would live like kings while we were away!
I didn't think I'd survive the leaving...it proved to be the hardest part of answering 'the call' and I've literally been counting down the days til I can embrace family again and be reunited with this guy during furlough.
Yesterday, I received a message saying he's gone.
He's gone.
He's....gone.
For a couple of hours all I could muster up was, "NO!"
I knew he didn't have much longer...he just celebrated his '17th' birthday.
I wanted to be with him...
I never wanted to be without him.
No.......
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| Winston 3/1/98 - 5/5/15 Our perfect companions never have fewer than four feet. ~Colette |