You have mine

   Here are my hopes

   Here are my doubts

   Here are the things that I can't figure out

   Here are my storms, my crashing seas

   Here are the burdens that have brought me to my knees

   I will take You at Your unfailing Word

   More than all I want, I will seek You first

   I will bless Your name when the night is long
   God, you have my surrender

   Here are my prayers, my heart will wait
   I will bind my will so You can have Your way
   Here are the things I can't undo
   But I am nothing without You

   I will take You at Your unfailing Word
   More than all I want, I will seek you first
   I will bless Your name when the night is long
   God, You have my surrender

   I cast my cares...
   I cast my cares on You,
   You have my surrender


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I can listen to Lauren Daigle sing that song all day long but
   today I couldn't sing along without tears.

I'm so tired, y'all.
Transition is hard.
I don't feel like fighting anymore.
I've been undetermined.
And I've said more than once, "I'm not satisfied."
Unpacking and repacking suitcases week after week tempts us to give up.
Our month has been so full.
The last 3 years have been full - following, questioning, hoping, doubting, lists of things we can't figure out, storms, crashing seas, and yes, burdens that have taken us to our knees.
We've prayed, we've waited, but you know what?  We've fought surrender a little bit, too.


Merriam-Webster's dictionary defines surrender like this:

: to agree to stop fighting, hiding, resisting, etc., because you know that you will not win or succeed

: to give the control or use of (something) to someone else

: to allow something (such as a habit or desire) to influence or control you

It sounds like a negative word...like failure in a way.

We are tempted to think, "We have to ______ to make it.  We have to ______ to keep going.  We have to ______ to keep from completely falling apart."

But what we are finding to be true (again today) is that the greatest success is still in living surrendered.

"We are a family standing in the waiting room of Fully Known,

determined to exchange a foretaste

of what's to come."

(song lyrics above by Lauren Daigle @ Centric Worship Retreat--video here: https://youtu.be/9v2xNZ2RNFk)